tale of the white cap (part 2)

Almost a year ago, I posted a blog titled "tale of the white cap." It was all about commitment. It was about how people have varying degrees of commitment to something...

My friend did not allow me to use her cap which the group needed. Now, a string of circumstances has passed the hypothetical white cap, which my friends need, to me. And, like my friend, I seem unwilling to let them borrow it.

And in my unwillingness, I have hurt people.

"Lord of Time and Bounty, I pray that you give me the wisdom to see pass the limited resources that I have. Lord, let me see and measure things according to Your riches and according to Your promise that You will provide everything that we need and desire... I also pray that You let Your unconditional love fill the gaps among us - gaps in terms of commitment and understanding - and that it may bind us in reconciliation... Amen..."

first gig

September 5th, Friday, was the day “Kape ug Kanta” was revived. It was also the day of Two Copper Coins' first gig.

I really do not know how to look back to that day. So many things happened around and within me.

I could look at it as a disaster. I was the (unofficial) organizer of the event and I totally forgot to prepare the sound system. People were asking me where were the speakers and other equipment. It was scheduled to start at half past seven in the evening and it started some minutes after nine. For almost two hours, people were asking me, “What time will we start?”

So few people came. My girlfriend was pissed with me the whole stretch of the “show.” My good friend Koren was there to watch us perform but instead ended up watching my irresponsible persona fail and falter.

I could also look at it as a selfish act. The idea of me and the other guys of Two Copper Coins performing has taken the better part of me. The major reason I forgot about preparing for the event was that I was so excited and so busy practicing for our performance. Until now I continue to ask myself if I exerted a considerable amount of effort to revive “Kape ug Kanta” to bring back into existence a good venue for young Christians to hang out, or to provide a venue for me to perform.

It was supposed to be all for the glory of God. The event. Two Copper Coins. All these came into being to praise and glorify the Almighty. I failed to look past myself and look up to Him.

But of course, I could look at it another one of God's intricate plans. Despite my failures and questionable motive, it all worked out in the end.

Lord, I'm sorry for my selfishness. May you be glorified in everything that I do.

We hope to make “Kape ug Kanta” a regular activity of the young. And we strive to cling on to the purpose of honor Him, and Him alone.